I’m always amazed
at how topics for my weekly blog find me. Until yesterday, I came out this blog
after talked with my brother. He said, “You know most people are
waiting for life to happen to them, but they don’t realize that it’s life
that’s happening right now.” BANG – my mind blown.
Brother and I
chatted for another 30 minutes, but I couldn't stop thinking about what he had
said to me. I thought back to all the times that I had waited for life to
happen for me. I was waiting for a sign from God or Life or the Uni-verse. And
then one day I realized that what I was waiting for is what was doing the
waiting. I thought that I needed some permission from life or some authority
figure to start living my life.
We don’t want to
get to a place where we had wished we hadn't waited. Here’s a guy that just
took action, not waiting for life. And let’s think about this, what has waiting
cost us? What has waiting for a sign actually cost us in terms of wasted time,
lost opportunity and perhaps months, years of decades of wondering “What would
have happened if I had tried?”
This is the worst
kind of outcome I can imagine – to life a life full of regret. My deep wish for
you, since you are reading this blog at this moment, is to not live life with
regret, but instead full of fears faced. Life is scary. Taking risks is scary.
Bad things have happened in the past that we don’t want to re-live. And yet, it’s
coming to terms with these things that make us come fully alive.
There is a very
fine line between excitement and anxiety. The only difference being anxiety has
a negative perception of the future outcome and excitement has a positive
anticipation for the future outcome.
So what if it was
true that what you are waiting for is to realize that part of yourself that is
doing the waiting? What if you didn’t need approval or the blessing of someone
or something outside yourself?
If that were true,
what would you be doing – right now?
And this reminds
me of the things that I most regret. On the year 2013, I failed to get into
local university although I had appealed for twice. This is because of my unsatisfactory
STPM result. My parents are so mad at me because both of my sisters are able to
get good result and currently studies at local university but I can’t. They yet
to insist me to give up on study and asked me to go get job make money in order
to cut down the family’s financial burden. I’m so regret that I didn’t study
well during my form 6 study time. WORK LESS PLAY HARD is my attitude during
that period.
I did not fight
for the chance to further study at private university, because I know that my
parents don’t have extra money to pay the university course fees.
Until one day,
my aunty knew that I going to stop studying, she contacted with my mother and
told her she is willing provide me the financial support by helping me pay the
private university course fees and pay me the pocket money monthly. I’m so glad
that I have an aunty that love dearly on me. She told me that she is giving me
a chance to make up my regret, encourage me to learn well in university to
prevent make my parents feel disappointed on me again.
I know that not
everyone has the chance to get that kind of opportunity. I’m really appreciate and
cherish everything my aunty did to me. Since then, I promised to myself that must
do things with no regret
